Offically going home tonite.
I havent stepped foot in my own house since before Gage was born! I am nervous.
Worried how messy its goona be considering my father in law and his Girlfriend were saying there for 3 weeks and Micah and Zander have gone there randomly.
How am I going to do it with my high maintance baby???
Secluded out there???
I could use some help but not sure to begin. I already dont have enough time in a day to take care of the basic needs of both my kids let alone Gage's therapy stuff.
Dear God Please Help Me!
But we've been at my parents' house too long, getting thier help for long enough, its time to go home. Its taken its toll on my mom.
My poor Dad doesn't want Zander to go-he was teary eyed over it last night.
Well I wont have the internet for a while unless things change so-Peace Out to my Blog that I'm not even sure if anyone reads
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
The Bottle
The Bottle is my enemy
it keeps me up
why cant we just be nursing
The Bottle is my enemy
It means I'm still pumping
and what a pain
The Bottle is my enemy
They say to slowlly take it away
but I dont want to wait
The Bottle is my enemy
Why cant he just Breastfeed
Now that he knows how
The Bottle is my enemy
Who says I cant just take it away
I'm the Mom
The Bottle is my enemy
He's nursing well enough
Maybe we should just drop it and see how it goes..........I need a Laleeche League Meeting
I am nursing Gage but following with Bottling (with fortified Breastmilk) which means I am pumping after. The Lactation consultant said today he's nursing well enough now and to slowly take away bottles-but the bottles are whats making everything harder-why can't I just stop the bottles and stop pumping (the lactation specialist said half pump and not pump at night just so I dont end up with mastitis just stopping). I sure could use some advice of a NICU mom who transitioned thier baby to just breast but I am finding out most dont make it that far. After nursing bottling and pumping for almost two weeks, who really could blame them! I'm just ready to toss the bottles and Nurse on Demand. It'll mean I'm more rested and life will be less scheduled. Although I wont let him go longer than three hours without nursing. I just think it'd be better for everyone and better for Zander too because that means I'll have more time for him. So-Bottles offically SUCK!lol
it keeps me up
why cant we just be nursing
The Bottle is my enemy
It means I'm still pumping
and what a pain
The Bottle is my enemy
They say to slowlly take it away
but I dont want to wait
The Bottle is my enemy
Why cant he just Breastfeed
Now that he knows how
The Bottle is my enemy
Who says I cant just take it away
I'm the Mom
The Bottle is my enemy
He's nursing well enough
Maybe we should just drop it and see how it goes..........I need a Laleeche League Meeting
I am nursing Gage but following with Bottling (with fortified Breastmilk) which means I am pumping after. The Lactation consultant said today he's nursing well enough now and to slowly take away bottles-but the bottles are whats making everything harder-why can't I just stop the bottles and stop pumping (the lactation specialist said half pump and not pump at night just so I dont end up with mastitis just stopping). I sure could use some advice of a NICU mom who transitioned thier baby to just breast but I am finding out most dont make it that far. After nursing bottling and pumping for almost two weeks, who really could blame them! I'm just ready to toss the bottles and Nurse on Demand. It'll mean I'm more rested and life will be less scheduled. Although I wont let him go longer than three hours without nursing. I just think it'd be better for everyone and better for Zander too because that means I'll have more time for him. So-Bottles offically SUCK!lol
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
Going Crazy
All this nursing, bottling and pumping is driving me a bit crazy from the extreme lack of sleep! But Gage is gaining weight, went to the doc today and he's 7lbs 8oz.
Zander is loving to kiss his little brother but he's got a boogery face at the moment so its a challenge.
I love my boys. I still however feel like I should still be pregnant and feel a bit jipped.
Zander is loving to kiss his little brother but he's got a boogery face at the moment so its a challenge.
I love my boys. I still however feel like I should still be pregnant and feel a bit jipped.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Barely awake
Tired
Up all the time with Gage and Zander is sick-Micah just took him to the ER.
Gage had his eye appt in Duluth today. It went ok it looks like his ROP is getting better.
Another eye appt with Dr Shuey in Hibbing on May 11 at noon in Hibbing, and if all goes good no more eye appts for him for awhile.
Up all the time with Gage and Zander is sick-Micah just took him to the ER.
Gage had his eye appt in Duluth today. It went ok it looks like his ROP is getting better.
Another eye appt with Dr Shuey in Hibbing on May 11 at noon in Hibbing, and if all goes good no more eye appts for him for awhile.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
NICU life
So Gage should be coming home on Tuesday if all goes well.
We will get trained in on the moniter he will have tomorrow and then do an overnight and if all goes good we can take him home on Tuesday.
Although he will be going home I am finding this all bitersweet.
I cant wait to have a normal(ish) family life again but I have gotten to know sooo many great nurses who care for Gage and all the NICU staff that I feel as if they are family. I guess 11+ weeks here will do that.
And I have my favorite nurses too; Laine, Sandy, Denise, Stephanie, Beth, Shelly and Barb, although the rest are good too.
Even one of the doc's I'll miss.
I've also come to rely on them so much with Gage's care I'm partly nervous to do it all without them.
I'm just chillin in the waiting room now. Waiting to move my stuff into a room unless it comes time for Gage's 7:00 feeding first.
Nursing, Bottling and Pumping-I am tired! And I miss Zander!
Thats the good part though-Micah, Zander, Gage and I will all be able to be together again.
Also feeling like I got jipped of being pregnant, and that I still should be. He shouldn't even be born yet-his due date was 5/22/11.
But he weighed in at 6lbs 14.9oz last night. Its hard to believe now that he's gained so much from being 1lb 15oz when he was born in February!
Side note;
I have gained tooo much wait since Gage has been in the NICU!
When life settles down and I can actually sleep and function somewhat normally I need to loose some major weight!
We will get trained in on the moniter he will have tomorrow and then do an overnight and if all goes good we can take him home on Tuesday.
Although he will be going home I am finding this all bitersweet.
I cant wait to have a normal(ish) family life again but I have gotten to know sooo many great nurses who care for Gage and all the NICU staff that I feel as if they are family. I guess 11+ weeks here will do that.
And I have my favorite nurses too; Laine, Sandy, Denise, Stephanie, Beth, Shelly and Barb, although the rest are good too.
Even one of the doc's I'll miss.
I've also come to rely on them so much with Gage's care I'm partly nervous to do it all without them.
I'm just chillin in the waiting room now. Waiting to move my stuff into a room unless it comes time for Gage's 7:00 feeding first.
Nursing, Bottling and Pumping-I am tired! And I miss Zander!
Thats the good part though-Micah, Zander, Gage and I will all be able to be together again.
Also feeling like I got jipped of being pregnant, and that I still should be. He shouldn't even be born yet-his due date was 5/22/11.
But he weighed in at 6lbs 14.9oz last night. Its hard to believe now that he's gained so much from being 1lb 15oz when he was born in February!
Side note;
I have gained tooo much wait since Gage has been in the NICU!
When life settles down and I can actually sleep and function somewhat normally I need to loose some major weight!
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